Wentworth Miller, Memes, & Suicide

I’d like to share an incredibly heart-breaking and powerful message by Wentworth Miller. This was so beautifully expressed..please take a moment to read.

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“Today I found myself the subject of an Internet meme. Not for the first time. This one, however, stands out from the rest. In 2010, semi-retired from acting, I was keeping a low-profile for a number of reasons. First and foremost, I was suicidal. This is a subject I’ve since written about, spoken about, shared about. But at the time I suffered in silence. As so many do.

The extent of my struggle known to very, very few. Ashamed and in pain, I considered myself damaged goods. And the voices in my head urged me down the path to self-destruction. Not for the first time. I’ve struggled with depression since childhood. It’s a battle that’s cost me time, opportunities, relationships, and a thousand sleepless nights.

In 2010, at the lowest point in my adult life, I was looking everywhere for relief/comfort/distraction. And I turned to food. It could have been anything. Drugs. Alcohol. Sex. But eating became the one thing I could look forward to. Count on to get me through. There were stretches when the highlight of my week was a favorite meal and a new episode of TOP CHEF. Sometimes that was enough. Had to be. And I put on weight. Big f–king deal.

One day, out for a hike in Los Angeles with a friend, we crossed paths with a film crew shooting a reality show. Unbeknownst to me, paparazzi were circling. They took my picture, and the photos were published alongside images of me from another time in my career. “Hunk To Chunk.” “Fit To Flab.” Etc. My mother has one of those “friends” who’s always the first to bring you bad news.

They clipped one of these articles from a popular national magazine and mailed it to her. She called me, concerned. In 2010, fighting for my mental health, it was the last thing I needed. Long story short, I survived. So do those pictures. I’m glad.

Now, when I see that image of me in my red t-shirt, a rare smile on my face, I am reminded of my struggle. My endurance and my perseverance in the face of all kinds of demons. Some within. Some without. Like a dandelion up through the pavement, I persist. Anyway. Still. Despite. The first time I saw this meme pop up in my social media feed, I have to admit, it hurt to breathe. But as with everything in life, I get to assign meaning. And the meaning I assign to this/my image is Strength. Healing. Forgiveness. Of myself and others.

If you or someone you know is struggling, help is available. Reach out. Text. Send an email. Pick up the phone. Someone cares. They’re waiting to hear from you. Much love. – W.M. ‪#‎koalas‬ ‪#‎inneractivist‬ ‪#‎prisonbroken‬”



[From Facebook]


9 thoughts on “Wentworth Miller, Memes, & Suicide

  1. I’m into the whole anti-suicide thing. Anti-suicide people are just entitled weirdos who police others’ lives.

    But I like his stance against memes and celebrity culture. I think that’s the biggest issue here. Someone who has become a meme finally speaks out against it.

    I should write about this.


      • I think the anti-suicide brigade are a bunch of hypocritical fascists who think they have a right to police other people’s bodies. I’d also prefer not to take ‘life is great’ lessons from a celebrity – they live the best lives there is.

        However, what interests me is how people in memes react to their picture being all over the internet.


      • I hear you. I see concern-trolls all the time regarding the weight/bodies of others, but not so much re suicide. I found Wentworth Miller’s essay so inspiring which is why I chose to share it..I really admire that kind of strength.
        Though I do kind of agree about life lessons from celebs. My fave is when they give weight loss advice with ALL the resources in the world.
        Those who create those hurtful memes need to be punted off the planet…some even target children..sickening.


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